Changes happen all the time, everywhere around us. This week I have had the most change I have had happen to me directly in a long time. I basically kicked 2 "friends" out of my life, and had others choose to walk out.
The "friends" that I kicked out were holding me back. One that I have known for almost 3 years, and just was doing more harm in my life than good. I can honestly say that I'll miss him, but I have a hate for him that I have never felt before. I know its strange saying that you hate/will miss someone, but thats just the feelings I have. He would tell me things, that now I know were all lies. I learned so much about him, and should have let him go a long time ago. I know that down the road I will get over the hate/miss about him. I am praying that I don't hear from him ever again. I made sure he knew that I wanted nothing to do with him, but he has never respected that in the past.
The 2nd friend that I kicked out, was just over controlling and obsessive. I couldn't take it anymore. I just got fed up and deleted/blocked him on FB, and said goodbye. Everything was ok, until he and I broke up the last time, and everything just went south. But I am happy that chapter has closed, and I wish him the best and I hope he finds someone who will deal with what he provides.
The friend whom walked out.. Now this is a tricky one.. I can honestly say I have no clue why. She and I have been friends for 6 years, and yea of course we had our ups and downs, but as far as I knew we were good. Then one day I sign on to FB and go to say hey to her, and she is no longer a friend of mine, the next day I'm blocked. Um.Ok. It was really strange to me, because the night before (If I remember correctly) she called me at 1 am to tell me that it just took her a 1/2 hour to kill a spider. No where in our conversation was there any fighting or disagreements. Maybe I missed something. Who knows... I don't because she no longer speaks to me. Anyways.. This is what she chose, so be it.
The friend whom walked out.. Now this is a tricky one.. I can honestly say I have no clue why. She and I have been friends for 6 years, and yea of course we had our ups and downs, but as far as I knew we were good. Then one day I sign on to FB and go to say hey to her, and she is no longer a friend of mine, the next day I'm blocked. Um.Ok. It was really strange to me, because the night before (If I remember correctly) she called me at 1 am to tell me that it just took her a 1/2 hour to kill a spider. No where in our conversation was there any fighting or disagreements. Maybe I missed something. Who knows... I don't because she no longer speaks to me. Anyways.. This is what she chose, so be it.
So I'm accepting change, as best as I can. I have never been accepting to major change in my life. Heck cutting my hair causes some form of anxiety. When it comes to major changes such as "gaining/losing" friends, frustrates me. I accept that type of change better when I know the truth and the whole truth, without that I remain frustrated. I'm working on learning to let go and move on, which is hard, but day by day I learn. About the current losing friends situation, I'm bettering my life with or without certain people in my life.You win some you lose some.
C'est la vie
Sometimes you just have to do that and get the negative folks away from you.
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