Perfection Doesn't Exist (warning: Negitivity ahead)

I must warn in advance, this blog is full of negativity and anger. If you don't think you can handle it/get offended by what I post, then go find something else to read, because I'm in a IDGAF mood. Alrighty then, On with the frustration:

Who ever thinks that perfection does exist is in complete denial that there is anything wrong.

The perfect man/woman does not exist.
The perfect relationship does not exist.
The perfect marriage does not exist.
The perfect child does not exist.
The perfect job does not exist.
The perfect house does not exist.
The perfect life does not exist.
The perfect family does not exist.
The perfect friends does not exist.
No one is perfect.
The perfect (insert object, thing, w/e here) does not exist.

Are you getting the point? Good. Now I can elaborate. I used to think I want this perfect life, that all was going to set in place and that was that I would live happily ever after.

Happily Ever After also does not exist. (oops didn't care enough forgot to add that to the list). There are no "prince charming"s. So no I will not sit around waiting for my knight in shining armor to show up, Never have, Never will.

Everyone has their flaws, and I'm the type of person who quickly overlooks those flaws, but I seem to get trampled on because of that. People have told me that that's a good thing to do and its rare to find a person who does that. I do admit (I'd be a damn hypocrite if I don't say) I have a very short term judging, as in I may judge someone by the way they look. I have it happen to me all the time because of my weight (I'm 5ft and carrying extra weight, duh its gonna make me look heavier than I am.) and because of my height and probably for more but what ever. Back to the point. Yes I'll judge, but I wont use it against you. I try my best to get to know a person for whom they are rather than how they look, Like I said NO ONE is perfect.

I give up on friends. Forget them. All they cause is drama. I don't need anyone of them. I feel unimportant to everyone anyways. You call me your friend, yet you call when you want something. You call when you need a shoulder to lean on. You call when you want/need someone to hang out with. You call when you think you have to.. That's not a friendship. A friendship has no secrets, at least thats what I thought.. then come to find out a friendship is 90% truth, 10% secrecy. Who knew? I sure didn't. Wish I did. Oh well. How can you call a person your friend when you hide secrets from the other? I did my best to give the best advice I knew, I did my best to be a friend to the best of my abilities, and come to find out you were keeping secrets from me. Thank you for putting our friendship into perspective, because now exactly what I am to you: Nothing. That is not a friendship. I don't know what planet you grew up on, or where you learned that. I learned that you have to be honest, and trust, and have good communication. I have tried to be honest with all of my friends, but I know now.

Moving is inevitable. Orlando, MO, IL, or WI. I havent decided yet, but only have a short time to do decide. Sebring will be one family less in a few months. Then my family will be one(2) members short in that same time period. I feel that I will have the best opportunities in MO. I'm nervous about it all, but I have to do it.  I have to make the right choice because it doesnt just affect me anymore. It affects Ginger and I. Sebring is driving me crazy, Florida itself hasn't been good on me, or my family. Yes I'm willing to give up remaining friends here, because my true friends will remain in contact with me. I'm just so ready to leave already, and yes I'm being impatient.

I need a drink.. Oh that's right I'm 21.. I can have a drink and not have to hide it :)
Vodka and Cranberry anyone?
Vodka and Pineapple?
Rum 'n Coke?

Yum<3

I hope everyone has a wonderful week, and had a happy weekend/Mother's Day. Til my next blog folks and remember:

C'est La Vie